how lucky i am

Indeed!

Starting over.  Moving on.  Taking a new path.  Changing your course.  A new beginning.  Whatever you want to call it.

I'm not good at it.  

I'm good at a few things, but change just isn't one of them.  

And I think that's ok.  

I sure am glad there are people that are good at it, though.  Because they help and encourage me.  They stand as examples of where I strive to go and what I strive to be.

But it takes me quite a bit longer to get there.

And again, I think that's ok.

I think it's just in my nature to always have to go about things the hard way.  I can never learn a lesson the easy way.  

But canyons aren't carved out in a day's time of water trickling through.  It takes a while.  It takes time to carve away the hard areas.  I think God is just as faithful and committed to my hard-headedness and stubborn ways.  

He covers me and fills all the cracks and carves away the hardness so that he can have even more room to fill me.  

Lots of times I really wish I could learn the easy way, but I'm thankful that God is long-suffering toward me.

And I'm so thankful that God knows the big picture and wants me to see places and experience beauty that I would be too afraid to see and experience on my own.

And while He may be met with resistance, it's my desire to follow Him and go where He leads.  

I don't want to be resistant, but I'm terrified of the unknown.  I know He knows and I do trust Him, but it's still unknown to me.

But, oh boy, I can only imagine the grin that comes across His face as I start to see what it is that He wanted me to see all along, and I start to fall in love with the plan that He had from the beginning. 

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